Who wears the crown ?

One thing that I learned in 2010 which I consider a treasure is to take time to look back your busy life journey, plot it down, check and continue the journey again.

The title for this post is taken from one of the workshops in National Conference, meaning who is the ruler of your life? are you your own master or do you allow God to lead you?

here is a note from the hand-out of the workshop, I am using it to do my own reflection on year 2010 as I getting myself ready to venture into 2011.

1. Define the relationship
(a) Does God has the right to decide the course of my life?
(b) It's not just about being morally good in character, it's about directions, major decisions, crossroads in our life.
(c) Romans 12:1 - Offering our bodies as a living sacrifice
(d) What does it menas to 'follow me'? a disciple's mindset?

2. Join the dots
(a) How did you get here? eg: I am now at the road of being a biomedical student in UKM KL, so how did I become who I am today?
(b) It is God who odered your path
(c) Never a coincidence, always a design
(d) Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose

3. Know what's ahead.
(a) What's ahead for you? carreer, life partner, family, raising children?
(b) serving God
(c) Location for settling down- where will you make an impact?
(d) leisure
(e) wealth; health

4. Knowing God's will
(a) God's sovereign will
(b) God's purposive will
(c) God's moral will
(d) God's specific will for individual

Conclusion: God leaves it to us to decide but is concerned with how we decide- decision making and the will of God.

At the end of my 2010, I was being challenged to redefine God in my life, am I my own master? am I seeking God for direction merely in major issues or will I surrender and allow God to take charge of my life, even the smallest issues?

If I were to give a name for my year of 2010, I will name it a year of challenge and year of many wrestles. My hope in 2011 is to be able to wait upon my Lord with humble heart and to be renewed in my faith, and to be able to soar on eagle's wing.

So, who is the one wearing the crown in your life?

Wish all of you a great 2011 and to soar like an eagle in everything you do!

I will instruct you and teach you in way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. Pslam 32:8

current love - by Deb Schwedhelm Photographer

My random delightful search! love the photos by Deb Schwedhelm , these photos inspired me to have a memory-capturing-session with my sisters and brother to cheerish siblings-hood given by God

* LIKE the mystery and the smell of adventure *

* LOVE *

beautiful snap shot of a mother's love for her child~ adore her smile and the child's restfulness

*Favourite*

I want to be like her! so carefree!

Charming!


like the breezy effect of the hair =)

Thank you Lord for this family that I have. Thank you for watching over them =)

Psalm 103

Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits— who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
The Lord works righteousness and justice for all the oppressed.
He made known his ways to Moses, his deeds to the people of Israel:
The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust.
As for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.
But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord’s love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children’s children—
with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts.
The Lord has established his throne in heaven, and his kingdom rules over all.
Praise the Lord, you his angels, you mighty ones who do his bidding, who obey his word.
Praise the Lord, all his heavenly hosts, you his servants who do his will.
Praise the Lord, all his works everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the Lord, O my soul.
~Psalm 103~

Thank you dear Lord for giving us the gift of salvation through Jesus Christ. You are the reason we celebrate Christmas.

Blessed Christmas and New year =)

Summer's End/ Summer's Memories

As promise, this beautiful piece of poem is one of the gems i gained from National Conference 2010, enjoy the poem =)

Summer's End/ Summer's Memories

The broad road now diverged

Into a thousand and one ways

Each leading, to a different path

Only one can only take

As the moment of this season

Slowly reaches its very end.

Mountains and valley stand

As chasms and oceans lie dormant between us

Meeting again, most probably never

Unless our paths cross again

Down the years yonder.

So for the time we shared

While the leaaves were still green-

I hoped, you have really enjoyed

The sweetness of the summer friuts

During our walks, in the lush orchards

And down the quiet gardens......

Because I did,

and I enjoyed every one of it.

And I hope,

Even after the summer's end

The lively summer's memories

will still remain and breathe- eternal

Even when the darkness comes

And the trees turn bare;

And you will remember

This dear night wind

To whom you have lent a patient ear

and listened, to his silent whispers

whose heart you can always find

to be a faithful friend

-just because you were there,

and I found you listening.

To the friend who lent me her pencil

So that I could finish this poem:

This song of mine, I dedicate this to you.

Thank you.

All the best for the days to come

But do remember this:

That you will never be alone

Because you will always have love

Faithfully by your side

And you will always remember me

Everytime you feel the wind blows

In the middle of a silent night.

by, Seymour Nightweaver (a pseudonym)

I knew the author of this poem from NC, and really admired his gifting in impromptu delivering of his thoughts and reflections through words. Visit his blog for more poems on his reflection during NC =)

Cheerish our friendship!

Prov 17:17 A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

National Conference 2010 - Rist It, U Turn (R.I.U.T.)

FES NC 2010 ended sometimes ago, this time, the NC was given the theme : Rist It U-Turn. Daring delegates of the conference to meet God, wrestle with Him, redefine Him in our life, seeking reassurance of salvation, to reflect on our life, to be vulnerable to correction, to be transform by God and to look into issues of our nation + chalellenge us to counter current! I have been challenge and would like to journal down pieces of puzzles of the conference here, do allow the photos to speak for themselves.


UKM KL CF delegates: 9 of us in total (frm left: Catherine, Wai Han,Josephine, Jolene, Lynn, Qian Yi, Me, Grace and Yvonne posing in front)


We posed together with our campus U-Turn flag sign. Thanks to all CF members who participated in making this flag sign come alive, special token of gratitude to Jane who gave birth to the idea of this sign. To those who couldnt make it to NC, your presence is represented by this flag sign albeit your physical absent =)

The theme song for the NC is Satu Suara by Juwita Suwito. We are so blessed to have her sing the song to us 1st hand on one of the few nights. She is gifted with powerful singing voice.

Participants from different states of Malaysia come together in one accord in this NC to look into our personal life issues and national issues. To understand ourselves adn our nation. In case you are wondering what is with the yellow bus doing there. the bus represents all participants are on board and ready to venture into 6 days of conference!

We were requested to wear national costume during the NC karnival night. Malaysia is so blessed with the richness of different etnic with beautiful and tasteful traditional costume.

Some of us from UKM KL CF wearing traditional costume, couldnt manage to gather the rest of the delegates from UKM KL cause to many people around. * head spinning* do u notice I am the only Indian, the rest are chinese ;^)

I stayed in a double-strorey apartment throughout the conference. I really enjoy suppering, crazying and photo-taking with my apartment-mates! Yes, this is our Family Photo! (frm top left: Angela, Rachel, Fong Wan, Shirley, Tania, Beatrice . Bottom from left: Sophia, Josephine , me and Renjie) Miss you girls! Excuse us for the messy left over supper !

this was the 1st time I realised that Maggi cup can actually taste so good =)
Beatrice, me and Angela. Beatrice is my small group member, and most of the photo in this post are credited from her album. Angela is my roomate, enjoy pillow-talk with her and like her pretty smile!

Of course, this would not be FES programme without any sports games! This time round we competed among small groups. This photo was taken when we were getting ready for dodge ball game, a game that requires excellence full body coordination cause you need to hide away from getting hit by ball mean while focusing on opponent to throw ball at them. but anyway, I enjoyed myself in this game * Love*

This is my small group! Our group was named after Kelabit. A tribe in northeast Sarawak. Bario is Kelabit heart-land. 1 of my dream after this NC is to hike mount Bario one day and try their famous Bario rice! ( Frm top left: Rachel, Tania, Beatrice, Elijah, Daniel Anand, wilson, Bottom: me and Josephine) FYI, Anand was our group leader, He is cute!
And yes! this is the group photo! There were around 400 of us excluded the crews. until today I still didnt fully get to know all who attended this NC. However, I have made a few good friends that i treasure. I pray that our friendships will continue to grow in Christ even after NC. this NC is like a Pit stop for me, a point for me to reflect, to reencounter and resubmit myself 100% to Him. Real challenge is still ahead of me, yet I will not fear for God has given me no spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline (2 Tim 1:7). Therefore, I shall do my best to present myself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth (2 Timothy 2:15).

Thank you FESand above all, Thank you dear Heavenly Father, for speaking through your servant through the book of 2 Tim. Enable me Lord to keep your word in my heart and live it out. That I will be like Paul to fight a good fight, to finish the race , keep the faith and be called good and faithful servant! and that my life will be a legacy leave behind to encourage and be a testimonial to those who come behind me.

NC has been a bonus for me to end my 2010 in reflection and preparing myself to soar on eagle's wings in future!

p/s: up next, I will share with you a beautiful poem written by a friend I treasure from NC. He is very gifted in expressing himself through poems. I can almost smell the season and feel the breeze from the way he put words into his writing. Talented!

The songs that speak

These two songs are the songs that speaked into my life recently, have been playing them on my laptop again and again...

"Lifesong"

Empty hands held high

Such small sacrifice

If not joined with my life

I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say

And the things I do

Make my lifesong sing

Bring a smile to You

Let my lifesong sing to You

Let my lifesong sing to You

I want to sign Your name to the end of this day

Knowing that my heart was true

Let my lifesong sing to You

Lord I give my life

A living sacrifice

To reach a world in need

To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say

And the things I do

Make my lifesong sing

Bring a smile to You

Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Let my lifesong sing to You

'A Pure Heart'

A pure heart

that's what I long for

A heart that follows hard after Thee

A pure heart

that's what I long for

A heart that follows hard after Thee

A heart that hides Your Word

So that sin will not come in

A heart that's undivided

But one You rule and reign

A heart that beats compassion

That pleases You, my Lord

A sweet aroma of worship

That rises to Your throne

What does your heart beating to?

What is your lifesong?

Prudence (Reading from C. S. Lewis)

"Prudence means practical common sense, taking the trouble to think out what you are doing and what is likely to come of it. Nowadays most people hardly think of prudence as one of the 'virtues'. in fact, because Christ said we could only get into His world by being like children, many Christians have the idea that, provided you are 'good', it does not matter being a fool. But that is a misunderstanding. In the first place most children show plenty of prudence about the things there are really interested in, and think them out quite sensibly. in the second place, as St. Paul points out, Christ never meant that we were to remain children in intelligence: on the contrary, He told us to be not only as harmless as doves but also to be as wise as serpents. we wants a child's heart, but a grown-up's head. he wants us to be simple, single-minded, affectionate, and teachable, as good children are; but He also wants every bit of intelligence we have to be alert at its job, and in 1st-class fighting trim. The fact that you are giving money to a charity does not mean that you need not try to find out whether that charity is a fraud or not. the fact that what you are thinking about is God Himself ( for eg, when you are praying ) does not mean that you can be content with the same babyish ideas which you had when you were a five-year-old. It is of course, quite true that God will not love you any less, or have less use for you, if you happen to have born with a very second-rate brain. He has room for the people with very little senses, but He wants everyone to use what sense they have. The proper motto is not ' Be good, sweet maid, and let who can be clever,' but 'Be good, sweet maid, and don't forget that this involves being as clever as you can.' God is no fonder of intellectual slackers than of any other slackers." (C. S. Lewis, The joyful Christian)

Prov 2:1-2, 5,9-10
My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding,..., then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. .... then you will understand what is right and just and fair - every good path. For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.

Dear God, I pray for prudent mind in dealing with life affairs. teach me and grant me the spirit of wisdom. In Jesus name, AMEN