My Chronicles

daily dose of Proverbs

2011-01-26T23:36:00.002+08:00

Prov 19:2 It is not good to have zeal without knowledge, nor to be hasty & miss the way.

2011-01-19T12:40:00.002+08:00

Picture credited: Penelope Dullaghan

I want to run away....

To a place that belongs to me

A place where I can soar....

Issue I fear in life

2011-01-16T23:07:00.004+08:00

What do you most afraid of? I believe everyone must have certain fear in life. Probably you are afraid of spiders or cannot stand vegetables or fear of taking flight or must sleep with lights on at night.

For me, I have this particular fear of being in gathering of fellowship where silent strikes the conversation , so to speak.

Meaning that, I am afraid of coming into communion with moment of silentness when I am being with my friends. Therefore I always have this tendency to break all the silent and be the talkactive role, to get the ball rolling, to avoid moment of silent.

Little did I know, I need to practice tactfulness and the skills of communication and the wisdom to speak the correct words at the right moments. and little did I know, it is okay to have moment of silent between friends or people I know during fellowship or gathering, just to enjoy the quiet companionship of one another, period.

Today, I learned that I need to be more tactful, to remember living out one of my new year resolutions which is to be wise in carry out conversation and to also learn to appreciate the treasure of silentness in moments spend with love one. To conclude, I am to learn to be still in those moments.

Come, let us embrace the fear in our life and summit to Lord Jesus Christ!

Eph 4:29 - Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

On another note, I try my ever 1st real live fresh CHERRY today!!! it was bought from MPG (thx to Lee fang). It was so sweet and juicy unlike the preserve cherry we usually had on the topping of cakes!! it is so so different yet refreshing! I have fallen in love with this sweet cherry instantly eventhough I doubt it initially. thank You Lord God for such wonderful creation of cherry =)

Such a simple little sweet red stuff can actually brighten some one's day =)

2011-01-09T22:06:00.006+08:00

Blessed is the man who finds wisdom,
the man who gains understanding,
for wisdom is more profitable than silver
and yields better returns than gold.
wisdom is more precious than rubies;
nothing you desire can compare with wisdom.
prov 3:13-15

Dear God, I need wisdom from You to live a life that glorifies Your name. enable me. In Jesus name, Amen.

He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God who has called you into fellowship with His son Jesus Christ our Lord is faithful. It is because of Him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. 1 cor 1:8-9, 30

Current love =)

2011-01-07T00:29:00.012+08:00

Here are some of my delightful search, like to share with you =)

like the top, skirt and her gasture! she is adorable !

like the matching belt + the scenary! also, adore her smile!

like the coat, necklace + the velvet skirt ++ the leafy path! admire the confidency shown in her that seems so effortlessly

this photo is my *Favourite*

wondering what is making her so concentrating?

Gem for tonight:

Had a wonderful talk with ping peng just now. Really appreciate her kindness, patience and her effort of taking time to drop by to listen to me + buying the Jco dougnut. thank you dear Lord Jesus for sending me friends whenever I need help, comfort and encouragement, whenever I find it hard to move on and when I am lacking of faith and strength. thank you dear Lord for your amazing love.

Teach me dear God to focus on You instead of the issues of my life, teach me to be still and know that You are God.

Good night

John 15: 13

Greater love has no one than this, that He lays down His life for His friends.

Who wears the crown ?

2011-01-03T18:54:00.005+08:00

One thing that I learned in 2010 which I consider a treasure is to take time to look back your busy life journey, plot it down, check and continue the journey again.

The title for this post is taken from one of the workshops in National Conference, meaning who is the ruler of your life? are you your own master or do you allow God to lead you?

here is a note from the hand-out of the workshop, I am using it to do my own reflection on year 2010 as I getting myself ready to venture into 2011.

1. Define the relationship
(a) Does God has the right to decide the course of my life?
(b) It's not just about being morally good in character, it's about directions, major decisions, crossroads in our life.
(c) Romans 12:1 - Offering our bodies as a living sacrifice
(d) What does it menas to 'follow me'? a disciple's mindset?

2. Join the dots
(a) How did you get here? eg: I am now at the road of being a biomedical student in UKM KL, so how did I become who I am today?
(b) It is God who odered your path
(c) Never a coincidence, always a design
(d) Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose

3. Know what's ahead.
(a) What's ahead for you? carreer, life partner, family, raising children?
(b) serving God
(c) Location for settling down- where will you make an impact?
(d) leisure
(e) wealth; health

4. Knowing God's will
(a) God's sovereign will
(b) God's purposive will
(c) God's moral will
(d) God's specific will for individual

Conclusion: God leaves it to us to decide but is concerned with how we decide- decision making and the will of God.

At the end of my 2010, I was being challenged to redefine God in my life, am I my own master? am I seeking God for direction merely in major issues or will I surrender and allow God to take charge of my life, even the smallest issues?

If I were to give a name for my year of 2010, I will name it a year of challenge and year of many wrestles. My hope in 2011 is to be able to wait upon my Lord with humble heart and to be renewed in my faith, and to be able to soar on eagle's wing.

So, who is the one wearing the crown in your life?

Wish all of you a great 2011 and to soar like an eagle in everything you do!

I will instruct you and teach you in way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. Pslam 32:8

current love - by Deb Schwedhelm Photographer

2010-12-30T00:46:00.009+08:00

My random delightful search! love the photos by Deb Schwedhelm , these photos inspired me to have a memory-capturing-session with my sisters and brother to cheerish siblings-hood given by God

* LIKE the mystery and the smell of adventure *

* LOVE *

beautiful snap shot of a mother's love for her child~ adore her smile and the child's restfulness

*Favourite*

I want to be like her! so carefree!

Charming!

like the breezy effect of the hair =)

Thank you Lord for this family that I have. Thank you for watching over them =)

Psalm 103

2010-12-27T19:54:00.005+08:00

Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits— who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
The Lord works righteousness and justice for all the oppressed.
He made known his ways to Moses, his deeds to the people of Israel:
The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust.
As for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.
But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord’s love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children’s children—
with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts.
The Lord has established his throne in heaven, and his kingdom rules over all.
Praise the Lord, you his angels, you mighty ones who do his bidding, who obey his word.
Praise the Lord, all his heavenly hosts, you his servants who do his will.
Praise the Lord, all his works everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the Lord, O my soul.
~Psalm 103~

Thank you dear Lord for giving us the gift of salvation through Jesus Christ. You are the reason we celebrate Christmas.

Blessed Christmas and New year =)

Summer's End/ Summer's Memories

2010-12-15T22:01:00.004+08:00

As promise, this beautiful piece of poem is one of the gems i gained from National Conference 2010, enjoy the poem =)

Summer's End/ Summer's Memories

The broad road now diverged

Into a thousand and one ways

Each leading, to a different path

Only one can only take

As the moment of this season

Slowly reaches its very end.

Mountains and valley stand

As chasms and oceans lie dormant between us

Meeting again, most probably never

Unless our paths cross again

Down the years yonder.

So for the time we shared

While the leaaves were still green-

I hoped, you have really enjoyed

The sweetness of the summer friuts

During our walks, in the lush orchards

And down the quiet gardens......

Because I did,

and I enjoyed every one of it.

And I hope,

Even after the summer's end

The lively summer's memories

will still remain and breathe- eternal

Even when the darkness comes

And the trees turn bare;

And you will remember

This dear night wind

To whom you have lent a patient ear

and listened, to his silent whispers

whose heart you can always find

to be a faithful friend

-just because you were there,

and I found you listening.

To the friend who lent me her pencil

So that I could finish this poem:

This song of mine, I dedicate this to you.

Thank you.

All the best for the days to come

But do remember this:

That you will never be alone

Because you will always have love

Faithfully by your side

And you will always remember me

Everytime you feel the wind blows

In the middle of a silent night.

by, Seymour Nightweaver (a pseudonym)

I knew the author of this poem from NC, and really admired his gifting in impromptu delivering of his thoughts and reflections through words. Visit his blog for more poems on his reflection during NC =)

Cheerish our friendship!

Prov 17:17 A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

National Conference 2010 - Rist It, U Turn (R.I.U.T.)

2010-12-13T22:29:00.007+08:00

FES NC 2010 ended sometimes ago, this time, the NC was given the theme : Rist It U-Turn. Daring delegates of the conference to meet God, wrestle with Him, redefine Him in our life, seeking reassurance of salvation, to reflect on our life, to be vulnerable to correction, to be transform by God and to look into issues of our nation + chalellenge us to counter current! I have been challenge and would like to journal down pieces of puzzles of the conference here, do allow the photos to speak for themselves.

UKM KL CF delegates: 9 of us in total (frm left: Catherine, Wai Han,Josephine, Jolene, Lynn, Qian Yi, Me, Grace and Yvonne posing in front)

We posed together with our campus U-Turn flag sign. Thanks to all CF members who participated in making this flag sign come alive, special token of gratitude to Jane who gave birth to the idea of this sign. To those who couldnt make it to NC, your presence is represented by this flag sign albeit your physical absent =)

The theme song for the NC is Satu Suara by Juwita Suwito. We are so blessed to have her sing the song to us 1st hand on one of the few nights. She is gifted with powerful singing voice.

Participants from different states of Malaysia come together in one accord in this NC to look into our personal life issues and national issues. To understand ourselves adn our nation. In case you are wondering what is with the yellow bus doing there. the bus represents all participants are on board and ready to venture into 6 days of conference!

We were requested to wear national costume during the NC karnival night. Malaysia is so blessed with the richness of different etnic with beautiful and tasteful traditional costume.

Some of us from UKM KL CF wearing traditional costume, couldnt manage to gather the rest of the delegates from UKM KL cause to many people around. * head spinning* do u notice I am the only Indian, the rest are chinese ;^)

I stayed in a double-strorey apartment throughout the conference. I really enjoy suppering, crazying and photo-taking with my apartment-mates! Yes, this is our Family Photo! (frm top left: Angela, Rachel, Fong Wan, Shirley, Tania, Beatrice . Bottom from left: Sophia, Josephine , me and Renjie) Miss you girls! Excuse us for the messy left over supper !

this was the 1st time I realised that Maggi cup can actually taste so good =)
Beatrice, me and Angela. Beatrice is my small group member, and most of the photo in this post are credited from her album. Angela is my roomate, enjoy pillow-talk with her and like her pretty smile!

Of course, this would not be FES programme without any sports games! This time round we competed among small groups. This photo was taken when we were getting ready for dodge ball game, a game that requires excellence full body coordination cause you need to hide away from getting hit by ball mean while focusing on opponent to throw ball at them. but anyway, I enjoyed myself in this game * Love*

This is my small group! Our group was named after Kelabit. A tribe in northeast Sarawak. Bario is Kelabit heart-land. 1 of my dream after this NC is to hike mount Bario one day and try their famous Bario rice! ( Frm top left: Rachel, Tania, Beatrice, Elijah, Daniel Anand, wilson, Bottom: me and Josephine) FYI, Anand was our group leader, He is cute!
And yes! this is the group photo! There were around 400 of us excluded the crews. until today I still didnt fully get to know all who attended this NC. However, I have made a few good friends that i treasure. I pray that our friendships will continue to grow in Christ even after NC. this NC is like a Pit stop for me, a point for me to reflect, to reencounter and resubmit myself 100% to Him. Real challenge is still ahead of me, yet I will not fear for God has given me no spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline (2 Tim 1:7). Therefore, I shall do my best to present myself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth (2 Timothy 2:15).

Thank you FESand above all, Thank you dear Heavenly Father, for speaking through your servant through the book of 2 Tim. Enable me Lord to keep your word in my heart and live it out. That I will be like Paul to fight a good fight, to finish the race , keep the faith and be called good and faithful servant! and that my life will be a legacy leave behind to encourage and be a testimonial to those who come behind me.

NC has been a bonus for me to end my 2010 in reflection and preparing myself to soar on eagle's wings in future!

p/s: up next, I will share with you a beautiful poem written by a friend I treasure from NC. He is very gifted in expressing himself through poems. I can almost smell the season and feel the breeze from the way he put words into his writing. Talented!

The songs that speak

2010-11-26T23:36:00.005+08:00

These two songs are the songs that speaked into my life recently, have been playing them on my laptop again and again...

"Lifesong"

Empty hands held high

Such small sacrifice

If not joined with my life

I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say

And the things I do

Make my lifesong sing

Bring a smile to You

Let my lifesong sing to You

I want to sign Your name to the end of this day

Knowing that my heart was true

Let my lifesong sing to You

Lord I give my life

A living sacrifice

To reach a world in need

To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say

And the things I do

Make my lifesong sing

Bring a smile to You

Hallelujah

Let my lifesong sing to You

'A Pure Heart'

A pure heart

that's what I long for

A heart that follows hard after Thee

A pure heart

that's what I long for

A heart that follows hard after Thee

A heart that hides Your Word

So that sin will not come in

A heart that's undivided

But one You rule and reign

A heart that beats compassion

That pleases You, my Lord

A sweet aroma of worship

That rises to Your throne

What does your heart beating to?

What is your lifesong?

Prudence (Reading from C. S. Lewis)

2010-11-04T02:40:00.004+08:00

"Prudence means practical common sense, taking the trouble to think out what you are doing and what is likely to come of it. Nowadays most people hardly think of prudence as one of the 'virtues'. in fact, because Christ said we could only get into His world by being like children, many Christians have the idea that, provided you are 'good', it does not matter being a fool. But that is a misunderstanding. In the first place most children show plenty of prudence about the things there are really interested in, and think them out quite sensibly. in the second place, as St. Paul points out, Christ never meant that we were to remain children in intelligence: on the contrary, He told us to be not only as harmless as doves but also to be as wise as serpents. we wants a child's heart, but a grown-up's head. he wants us to be simple, single-minded, affectionate, and teachable, as good children are; but He also wants every bit of intelligence we have to be alert at its job, and in 1st-class fighting trim. The fact that you are giving money to a charity does not mean that you need not try to find out whether that charity is a fraud or not. the fact that what you are thinking about is God Himself ( for eg, when you are praying ) does not mean that you can be content with the same babyish ideas which you had when you were a five-year-old. It is of course, quite true that God will not love you any less, or have less use for you, if you happen to have born with a very second-rate brain. He has room for the people with very little senses, but He wants everyone to use what sense they have. The proper motto is not ' Be good, sweet maid, and let who can be clever,' but 'Be good, sweet maid, and don't forget that this involves being as clever as you can.' God is no fonder of intellectual slackers than of any other slackers." (C. S. Lewis, The joyful Christian)

Prov 2:1-2, 5,9-10
My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding,..., then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. .... then you will understand what is right and just and fair - every good path. For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.

Dear God, I pray for prudent mind in dealing with life affairs. teach me and grant me the spirit of wisdom. In Jesus name, AMEN

FACIAL EXPRESSION

2010-10-26T17:21:00.005+08:00

THERE ARE VARIOUS FACIAL EXPRESSIONS THAT WE CAN PUT ON DAILY. MOST OF THE TIME, FACIAL EXPRESSIONS ARE THE REFLECTION OF THE EMOTION WE FEEL DEEP INSIDE. SOMETIME, WE JUST PUT ON OUR FACIAL EXPRESSION LIKE A MASK TO COVER OVER WHAT WE REALLY FEEL. HOWEVER, WE CANNOT PRETEND TO FEEL LIKE THAT PARTICULAR FACIAL EXPRESSION WE PUT ON IF WE ARE NOT.

TODAY, I FELT ANGRY!! TO THE EXTREME! FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I WAS TOTALLY ANGRY AND DISAPPOINTED!!!! & I WOULD LIKE TO RELEASE IT AND SHOUT IT OUT HERE!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

AWAY FROM ME, ANGER, I SAID. AFTER THIS POST, I AM GOING TO SAY GOODBYE TO YOU, ANGER. I SHALL LEARN TO FORGIVE AND RELENT. TO FILL MY HEART WITH POSITIVE EMOTION.

Eph 4 :26-27

" 'In your anger do not sin': Do not let the sun goes down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold."

Eph4 :30-32

" Do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."

enable me dear Lord, I cant do this by my own effort...

Waiting

2010-10-18T21:07:00.009+08:00

I really enjoy seeing people holding hands, it is indeed a comfortable way of intimacy out of love relationships. To me, holding hands has the magic to ease insecurity, to fill people's heart with peace and warm feeling, to guide the other person and to draw two person closer.

As a pilgrim on this life journey, I thank You Heavenly Father for holding my hand and never let go, even when I forgotten to wait upon You. Teach me dear Heavenly Father, to continue to seek after You even during period of waiting, teach me also to submit my fears, anxieties and uneasiness to You. Reminds me that You have a plan for me, is just a matter of time as the waiting goes on....

" Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Ps 27:14

"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

The Prodigal Daughter -by Charlie Mackesy

2010-04-24T09:49:00.002+08:00

this piece of art is done by Charlie Mackesy.
on this painting, Charlie writes:
“This is the story of the prodigal daughter – it should really be called the running Father who waited every day for his girl to come home – the daughter who had rejected him so badly – but when he saw her from a long way off – he ran to her and hugged her and kissed her”

IF

2010-01-30T21:54:00.003+08:00

If I have not compassion on my fellowservant, even as my Lord had pity on me,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I belittle those whom I am called to serve, talk of their weak points in contrast perhaps with what I think of as my strong points;
If I adopt a superior attitude, forgetting "Who made thee to differ? and what hast thou that thou hast not received?"
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I can easily discuss the shortcomings and the sins of any;
If I can speak in a casual way even of a child's misdoings,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I find myself half-carelessly taking lapses for granted.
"Oh, that's what they always do."
"Oh, of course she talks like that,
he acts like that,"
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I can enjoy a joke at the expense of another;
If I can in any way slight another in conversation, or even in thought,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I can write an unkind letter, speak an unkind word, think an unkind thought without grief and shame,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I do not feel far more for the grieved Savior than for my worried self when troublesome things occur.
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I know little of His pitifulness (the Lord turned and looked upon Peter),
if I know little of His courage of hopefulness for the truly humble and penitent (He saith unto him, "Feed My lambs"),
than I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I deal with wrong for any other reason than that implied in the words, "From His right hand went a fiery law for them. Yea, He loved the people";
if I can rebuke without a pang,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If in dealing with one who does not respond,
I weary of the strain,
and slip from under the burden,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I cannot bear to be like the father who did not soften the rigors of the far country;
if, in this sense, I refuse to allow the law of God (the way of transgressors is hard) to take effect, because of the distress it causes me to see that law in operation.
then I know nothing of Calvary love.

All this world needs is - Genuine Love

2010-01-30T21:27:00.002+08:00

Little Annie
A young girl known as "Little Annie" was in a mental institution. She was kept in a dungeon and was like an animal in many ways. When the attendants came, she would spring on them; she would claw at them and try to bite them. Sometimes she would just completely ignore them. she was considered a hopeless case.
But one nurse, in whose heart there dwelt the love of God, decided that she was going to try to reach Little Annie. Day after day she would come and speak to her softly. But Little Annie would just ignore her. One day the nurse brought some fresh-baked brownies and left them outside the cage. When the nurse returned the next day, the brownies were gone. The nurse continued to bring brownies n her visits to Little Annie. Finally, at long last, Little Annie began to get better. She was allowed out of the dungeon. and the day came when she was allowed out of the institution -- because that one nurse took the time to show her love.
Many years later, the famous Helen Keller was receiving a citation from Queen Victoria of England. the Queen said to her, "How do you account for your remarkable accomplishments in life?" She replied that she owed all that she was to her dear friend, Anne Sullivan, who with her hands in hers, opened her eyes and brought her up out of a black pit and enabled her to see the light.
So that one day she could say to her, "Oh Anne, you've made me to see the trees...and I see the sky...and I see the clouds. I see... Anne, I see God!" and Anne Sullivan is that same Little Annie who, touched by love, then touched others in return.
~ Dr. D. James Kennedy

simply want to share

2010-01-11T22:01:00.003+08:00

2010

2010-01-05T21:58:00.003+08:00

2009 has been a very challenging year for me, a year which I had so many trials and decision making moments, a year which I had been too calculative,a year which I had lost someone that I care, a year that seems to be restless yet unproductive, but looking back to 2009, still I want to give thanks for I had the opportunities to be exposed to some of the world issues that I never came across, to come to the realisation of my weaknesses and fear, I get to know myself a little better..at least..

Goodbye 2009... I will always remember of all the wonderful lessons you have taught me...always...

Welcome 2010!
I have no idea about how will you going to turn out to be, seriously, but allow me to name you as -' a year of breakthrough ', yes , I want this year to be a year whereby I will be an over comer, to conquer my own weaknesses and fear. Dear God, You know I cant do this on my own...

Oh , there are so many things I want to do in this whole new year. I want to be attentive to my friends, I want to be more sensitive and less ignorant, likewise, I want to be strong, I want to cling on to my dreams, I want to be faithful, I want to be fruitful, I want to be more tactful, I want to be wiser...endless list of ' I want to be...' and I really really want to see it coming to past.

To start this whole new year afresh, I finally come out with this to-be/do-list in order to achieve greater height in this year, Dear God, help me through as I plan my course, and determine my steps according to Your will.

New year RESOLUTION:
For better health ,
1. Consume more natural food, especially fruits and vege. (thanks to uncle Steven for the advice)
2. less mamak/ instant/ fast food .
3. participate in regular sports activity that generate more body oxygen intake for better cognitive function.

For better academic performances,
1. no procrastination.
2. better time management
3. learn to prioritize

For better role as a daughter, friend and course mate,
1. learn to be sensitive
2. less indifferent
3.do what is right not what majority does
4. be more caring and loving
5. most of all, be genuine and sincere
Let everything you said be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them Eph4:39

For spiritual growth,
1.spend more quality devotional time
2. meditate on the Word of God
3. Put on the spiritual armour
4. Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your might (Dt 6:5)

Dear Father in Heaven, in 2010, I commit myself once again to you, search my heart, instruct me, guide me and transform me according to your plan. Give me spirit of discernment, spirit of wisdom, spirit of peace and spirit of joy. Father, I acknowledge you as my God, my pillar of strength, my comforter , my provider. I will trust in You, knowing that You will journey with me through all the life challenges.Give me life in your way, Father. Thank you for your grace and mercy. In Jesus name, Amen.

Love letters of Christmas

2009-12-18T18:40:00.005+08:00

I am back and will like to share with you this wonderful CHRISTMAS CAROL I learnt from ' Special Children's Camp'. These group of children are kids that are categorised as hyperactive kids or diagnosed with autism. Indeed, they had given me many surprises throughout the 2 days i spent with them and I thank God for this new experience that I had. truly, I have been blessed more than what I had given to them.

this is a song sang by them:

Love Letters Of Christmas

C- Christ Jesus has come from heaven

H- The holy I am

R- Rejoice with the mighty angels

I- the infant both God and man, oh

*Love letters of Christmas telling me

God loves every boy and girl

Love letters of Christmas telling me

God so loved the world

S- a star moving through the heavens

T- Great tidings of Joy

M- a manger that Jesus slept in

A- the angel who watched the baby boy

S- a Saviour is sent from heaven

S-Great shepherd is He

S- the Son of the living God brings

S-Salvation to you ad me, oh

oh, and the children were holding cards that formed the word 'CHRISTMAS' while singing this song, that was so so sweet and heart-warming , I will never forget that scene ;^)

thank you children for this wonderful performance, you are the best, always!

Yes! Christmas is around the corner!

A little updates from me bout my past few weeks

2009-07-19T15:54:00.003+08:00

Actually, there should be more entries on SWEEP, to share on what i had heard, seen and learnt, but I think you can visit some of the SWEEPERs' blog(Clara, Hannah and Jinny), to read on their views and experiences, the link is here , here , here , here and here.

well, I have just started my 3rd year in UKM KL , I cant believe I am a 3rd year student now..oh 3rd year. .i can hear people greeting me and calling me senior and also, my schedule is more hectic compare with my 1st year and 2nd year. btw, the subjects that i am taking this sem are:

Basic Biomolecular

Haematology

biochemisrty

diagnostic integrative

immunology

biostatistic

so far, I enjoy biostatistic's lectures the most because the lecturers are fun and they carried out their teaching in a very interactive way which i think is good, at least the lectures are lively and we get to be more proactive in answering questions, as for haematology and immunology are kindda tough, i really need to do some revision on the both subjects. moreover, we spent most of our classes in the lab for diagnostic integrative, to observe microorganism and to identified them through culture, stainning, microscopic observation, biochemical test, microgen test as well as serology test. to enlighten all of you,1 of my specimens has the pathogenic effect to cause food poisoning and diarrhea, and another will lead to throat infection =( poor me, i was infected and didnt sound like myself for 1 whole week, what to do? should blame myself for not carrying out aseptic technique properly =(

the highlight for the past 2 weeks in ukm kl is !!! the CF junior welcoming night! we had a wonderful time playing games, getting to know 1 another and makan makan !!! despite the small amount of juniors, we truly had fun together, I especially enjoy the drama directed by shalisha!! fyi, the drama is about making choices by ourselves as we enter Uni,it is the choices that we had made that meant the most and make us who we are. no more mummyboy or papagirl, we have to make our own decision, at the same time, knowing that God is there guiding us and leading us. =) I have decided too to make my own choices! the 4 years of uni life, i will choose to equip myself, to become more knowlegable and skillful .Despite of the 2 years that had past,I will start to discover the fun that I probably had missed out, to learn to care and love more genuinely, most importantly, to grow closer to my heavenly Father =)

Also, I went to midvalley the other day, to meet up with some SWEEPERs-jinny and yu-shen! Jinny was here in KL as she was attending an interview here, really happy to be able to see her again =D she is such an encouraging person, I especially treasure the times when we talked and shared in SWEEP, about CF, CG, families and our future. and the mosquito repellent smell! =) as for yu-shen, he is currently having an internship with UNHCR (United Nations High Commissioner for refugees),his duty is to release the refugees from the detention camps all over the peninsular. Only those qualified refugees have the opportunity to be set free, this mean that UNHCR is to protect and safe-guards the right of refugees or some call them silent-seeker. I personally think that is a very noble job!So, we had dinner in Carl's junior as suggested by jinny's freind, was my 1st time there, and I love the burger!! superb!! although it was a mess eating the burger, and the table is small, burger is big n fries are abit burnt, but still i enjoy the chat-up. hope the next time we manage to meet up all the SWEEPERs!

I guess this is enough to convey my life for the past few weeks, I really hope to blog more, but can't due to my lazziness ... will try to stop procrastinating.

Btw, 40 days fast and pray for our nation is starting soon, 22nd July, as a Malaysian, let us play our role to pray for the nation. as Richard Foster put it this way 'Prayer is like we are working with God to determine the future! certain things will happen in history if we pray rightly. we are to change the world by prayer!'

God bless =)

SWEEP 09!

2009-06-30T21:00:00.018+08:00

I mentioned on my previous post before that i was going to attend to a program known as [ Social Work Exposure And Embracement Program] by FES. It was being held on 15-28 of Jun in Klang Valley. here are some photos that had been taken, to share with you some of the amazing+eye-opening experiences and things that I had learnt throughout =)

there were 18 of us in SWEEP- 12 students from different Uni and 6 staffs from FES . we were staying in a double-storey house for 2 weeks! thx 2 Crossroad =)

ms Yeo Swee Lan- She was the speaker for our last session 'heart & mind of the christian worker'. i like her gentleness & quiet spirit =)

Rev. Pax Tan- he was the speaker for 'reality of a social worker', I like his sense of humour =)

Celebrating Gabriel's birthday ! thx Jinny for the lovely birthday card.

MAB- Malaysia Association of Blind in Brickfield, i visited this place on my 1st day of attachment. the people here are blind or having some visiual impairmnet. they can be benefited from rich resources such as library,job trainning and computer trainning provided by MAB.

this is the throne of Jesus where we surrendered our commitment and fear unto His hands, trusting Him in leading n guiding us in being faithful even after SWEEP.

psalm 89:14- righteousness & justice are the foundation of Your throne, love & faithfulness go before you.

we had our SWEEP final reflection in tmn jaya park. I really like the place except for the ants, spiders, mozzie and bugs. other than those, it is a beautiful place =)

this shot was taken on the last day of SWEEP . we were waiting for the closing ceremony to start. the one sitting on the couch on the left is Peter Young. he is being known as father of social work in M'sia.

Mr. James Nayagam-our speaker on 'opportunity for involvement'. i like his interactive way of conducting his talk.

Debriefing in the office of United Voice with Ms SweeLan.

united voice's people + SWEEPers, United voice is a project of self -advocacy caters to people with learning disabilities and it is known as the 1st registered society in M'sia being lead by people with learning disabilities.

I was giving a presentation on 'Grooming- table manner', to the members in United Voice . actually, i kindda did it badly especially when i was asked to conduct it in bahasa. i was supposed to say 'cara makan sopan' but i ended up saying 'ganas', good thing they only laugh at my mistake. that what i like bout them of being so simple and nice.

we were setting up the place for the Grooming talk given to all the members in United Voice. the session includes proper ways to greet people, communicate with people, table manner, dressing up oneself,etc etc....

Pastor Andrew Wong-he was the speaker on 'Christian Response to Social Work'. yummy jelly! Jinny and i were being taught on how to make jelly by these 2 lovely girls from United Voice. Apart from jelly, they also make cookies and omochi(a type of Japanese dessert). they are so professional in it.

Uniter Voice-An employment Project to create employment for persons with learning disabilities

this is the stall where the UV members sell their hardwork =) i miss the omochi

Sunday outing- SWEEP was not merely looking in the social concern, we were glad to have one-day-off on sunday to hang out together. this is BAR B Q where we had our lunch after Church. something that amazed me here was, they used lard to oil the surface of the pot instead of normal cooking oil. interesting

tmn jaya park

snap shot of what we learnt and being exposed to throughout the SWEEP

I had been exposed to the issues that break God's heart, now what? What are my responses and what are the things that God wants from me?

we visited Pink Triangle Foundation in Chow Kit. it is a community-based, voluntary non-profit making organization providing HIV/AIDS education, prevention, care and support program, sexuality awareness and empowerment program for vulnerable communities in M'sia.

the mural on the ceiling of PT Foudation

Summary of the 1st week

Green papers are thoughts that we had written down of what stood out to us on the 1st week, whereas the yellow papers are things that we are hoping to learn or to discover.

Questions that we asked ourselves after going through so many sessions of exposure and understanding.

What is discrimination??!! it covers so many things ...which group of people do I discriminate in my daily life?!

Initially my thoughts on social work is an act of compassion and a pair of helpful hands. During SWEEP, it made me realised that s. w. is an act of living out God's kingdom with the complement of professional skills and willing heart to serve others sincerely.

We had the privilege to pay a visit to UNHCR and Refugees' camp to understand 1st hand on their situation. we were also blessed by the sharing given by 2 refugees-a Burmese and a Rohingyas.

the one on the left is a permanent staff in united voice. she works with people with learning disablilty for 4 yrs already.

adorble

they are a bunch of nicest people who had made me see how life can be simple but meaningful =)

magnetic holder done by people in United voice

Steven is a child with autism, yet i find him very helpful and thoughtful.

master piece! -this piece of magnificient art was being drawn by a kid with autism too. Bravo!

Jennifer- the girl that makes omochi and jelly =)
Wai han- i enjoyed working with her in the UV stall selling cookies, jelly and omochi.

Packing up omochi

in the midst of 'producing' edible omochi, see the girl beside me? her name is Intan, lovely! for understanding poverty session, we went to selayang flat and by the help of YKPM, we managed to visit a poverty-stricken Indian family. here was also the place that i had my most embarrassing moment throughout SWEEP, if you want to know, ask me personally. She was a single mother that trying to make end meets and to feed 6 schooling children on her own. I really praise her for being so tough and never gives up hope despite the circumstances. to me, she is beautiful.

this is the meeting hall that we had our debriefing with YKPM on understanding poverty. I like their objective on transforming the mindset of the poor towards self-reliance and development of their own communities through knowledge.

SWEEP banner that survived the rain and storm and sunlight! colourful isnt it?!

these are a group of blind children being trained in MAB to adapt to the society. they were singging national anthem when i was taking this photo.
the boy in green is Rafi- he was being diagnosed with eye-cancer few years back. the medical practitioner taken out his eye balls and replaced them with artificial eye balls.it hurt me when he mentioned to me that he felt painful during chemptheraphy.

childrean at the ABC centre in MAB.

Before we ended our attachment in MAB, we discovered this cute little donation box on the wall, very antique, i coudnt resist the temptation of taking photo with it ;p

this teacher was also having partial vision impairment, he was teaching this young girl on how to use a Braille type-writter.
trying out the type-writter, Mr Taslim is a blind man too, but to me, he can walk, drink and talk as if he is having perfect vision. thanks to him that we manage to learn Braille in one day.

i have no idea what is this, but we saw it in MAB. is it some sort of penta-cycle?

Mr yam is the 2nd guy from your right, he was an engineer before he was struck by some deadly bacterias that turn him blind one year ago. He is a tough guy, you can read more about him in his blog -http://blindsight.blogspot.com/

it was game time! we were having fun with the blind by playing Domino.

HaPPY BiRTHDaY SuZaNe ;-}

2009-05-07T16:11:00.004+08:00

Lovely Day =)

Today is so full of sunshine, hope and loveliness * broad smile*

How I wish my words can portray the joy in my heart,

as I am sharing my joy with you here.

That you may feel the joy too! * broad smile again *

This morning, I smiled =)

I smiled at the tree outside my window when i woke up at 4am =)

I smiled to my own image inside the mirror as I combed =)

I smiled at the cleaner before I went out from my hostel =)

I smiled at the weather, sunny day! =)

I smiled at the normally-very-irritating cat that past by me on my way to exam hall =)

I smiled =)

and I can feel that I am lighter as if a heavy burden just lifted from me !

I smiled and am sooooooo glad that I finally sat for my last paper this morning!

ultimate joy!

a token of gratitude towards my friends who have been praying for me
and that special someone who, during exam week so often buy me pretzel, dougnut and the best medicine to release tension: encouragement+cheer+chat

Plus, today is Suzane's birthday!!!!!!! Happy birthday sweetheart. you are a wonderful person and your laugh is contagious! I am so glad that I befriended you in UKM KL, at least my life has not been wasted in UKM KL! Cheerish you!

As I promise, here is a peppermint pie-looking brownie specially designed just for you!

will bake you a real one next time, when you all come to my house =)

Blessed birthday!

worship

2009-05-03T09:21:00.004+08:00

In FGA KL, this month is recognised as the month of worship .

define worship please , to me : worship is my acts and saying that are pleasing in God's eyes.

recently, I found myself lossing focus on worshipping God. I tend to please people more than pleasing God,in fact, I compromised, according to my own standard instead of obeying the law that God has given to us, so that we will abide in it and be prosperous and successful.

Lord Jesus, only you can lead me back to the heart of worship. thank you.

2 Tim 2:19-- "...everyone who confesses the name of the Lord must depart from wickedness."

1John 2:3-6 -- "We know that we have come to know Him if we obey His commands. The man who says, "I know Him," but does not do what He commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him."

James 4 :7-8--"Submit yourselves, then to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. come near to God and He will come near to you. Wash your hands you sinner and purify your hearts, you double minded."

I am coming back to the heart of worship :)

Am I Lonely?

2009-04-30T13:19:00.003+08:00

Overcoming Loneliness, Loving One Another
Posted on 05 January 2009 by Alice Nah
We, who live in cities, are rarely alone. The streets throng with people. Our mobile phones and email accounts keep us within reach. We have spoken to thousands of people over the years. Yet, many of us struggle with loneliness. David too cried out, “Turn Yourself to me, and have mercy on me, for I am desolate and afflicted” (Psalm 25:16),
How do we overcome loneliness? How do we find meaningful companionship? It begins with a deep revelation of God’s love. Paul prayed that we “may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height – to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that [we] may be filled with all the fullness of God (Ephesians 3:18-19).
Experiencing the sacrificial love of Jesus heals us. It shows us how precious we are, how He knows us intimately (Psalm 139). God tells us repeatedly that He will never leave us or forsake us because of His faithfulness and mercy (Deu 31:6.8; Joshua 1:5; Hebrews 13:5). He is always with us.
How do we respond? The answer is in Jesus’ teaching of the two greatest commandments: to “…love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength”, and to “love your neighbor as yourself” (Mark 12:29-31). Jesus challenges us further – to love others as He loves us (John 13:34).
To love is to reach out to others, to include them in our lives, to extend beyond thinking of ourselves. It means loving our families, for that is where God set us (Psalm 68:6). It means we stop wearing masks, stop pretending to be perfect. God shows us how to love others – not selfishly, but sacrificially, not because people ‘deserve’ it but because they are precious to God. As we bathe in God’s love, and humbly demonstrate His mercy to others, we find true companionship.

HaPPY BiRTHDaY Sis !

2009-04-27T20:43:00.007+08:00

-This post is to dedicated to a birthday girl-

my sister

Happy 11th Birthday Sue Ann !

We are so proud to have a sister like you !

Enjoy your big day and may you continue to be the sunshine of our family:)

Here is a birthday cake for you :)

chicken ala carte

2009-04-26T11:07:00.003+08:00

View this movie at cultureunplugged.com

I ask myself one question today : what do i have for my breakfast, lunch and dinner..teatime in between, snacks while revising notes?

I am so blessed to have enough to eat.. thank you Lord:) but...

What about these groups of people out there who struggle to get a meal, who don't have proper nutrients, who have to starve to death? have i forgotten them?! Have i done something or simply because I am just an ignorance student with no power and authority to make a difference, therefore I said to myself : you can do nothing ! ?

Funny isn't it? while there is a group of people whom declare by WHO as being obese and needed to go for expensive diet plan or other treatments, and yet, there are people who don't even have a plate of rice to provide them with daily energy source... what a huge contrast?!

Watch this award winning video clip that talk about the neglected society, and what poverty has done to them! Is a true story and I believe there are so many others similar story out there waiting to be uncover.

I also believe that God is equal. He made the mother nature with enough food sources to feed everyone of us. As a christian, actions should be taken--- to END HUNGER.

Hope that this video clip will speak to you as it has spoken to me.

:)

something to share

2009-03-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

will like to share these verses with all of u :)

Isa 58:6-8
is not this the kind of fasting i have choosen:
to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke,
to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?
is it not to share your food with the hungry
and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter-
when you see the naked,
to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness will go before you,
and the glory of the Lord will be ypur rear guard.

something to think about,
have we been too content with what we have n who we are now? too comfortable in our comfort zone that we dare not do something to leave our current situation, even to make an effort by allocating a space to do something for our Lord?I have been there....

At the end of the day, when you stand in front of the judgement of the Lord,
will these two charges prevent us from entering into His kingdom?

1. Did not live under the Lordship of Christ?
2. Have we been silent by ignorant atitude and failed to reflect God's Love to the oppressed, the poor, the needy, the people who has not listened to the gospel before and our neighbour?

A Father's Love For His Son

2009-03-03T20:33:00.005+08:00

Team Hoyt - the father and the son

Hoyt was born in 1962 with complication of umbilical cord coiled around his neck and cut off oxygen to his brain, the parents were told that there would be no hope of normal development of this child. Yet, He is still alive today, and is actively playing a part in counselling parents with handicapped kids

came across this video clip in my email, showing a story of a father's love towards his son, the story really touches my heart, and I realised so much so our Father in heaven will do the same thing for us, He is always there running the race with us and for us.... I m glad that i do not have to worry about life for Jesus will carry me and run the race with me :)

was trying to upload the video clip but failed, just click on this link n u will be able to watch the video clip.

Philip1:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me.

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?

And who told the ocean you can only come this far?

And who showed the moon where to hide till evening?

Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Chorus:Well I know my Redeemer lives

I know my Redeemer lives

All of creation testifies

This life within me cries

I know my Redeemer lives

Ye-e-eah The very same God

That spins things in orbit

Runs to the weary, the worn and the weak

And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken

They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know, my Redeemer lives

I know my Redeemer lives

Let all creation testify

Let this life within me cry

I-I-I know My Redeemer

He lives To take away my shame

And He lives Forever I'll proclaim

That the payment for my sins

Was the precious life He gave

And now He's alive and

There's an empty Grave!

And I know

My Redeemer lives

He lives

I know My Redeemer lives

Let all creation testify

Let this life within me cry

I-I-I know my Redeemer

I know My Redeemer lives

*I know my Redeemer lives**I know, That I know, that I know, that I know, that I know

He lives*my redeemer lives**Because He lives I can face tomorrow He lives*I know, I know*

He lives*I spoke with Him this morning!*He lives*The tomb is empty*He lives*

He Lives! I'm going to tell everybody!!*

I like this song :)

S.W.E.E.P (LET MY HEART BE BROKEN FOR WHAT BREAKS THE HEART OF GOD)

2009-02-21T09:18:00.007+08:00

You must be wondering why on earth i post about sweeping?! yup, it is definitely s.w.e.e.p but that is the abb. for Social Work Exposure and Embracement Program. which i had signed up for.! i m so looking forward to this program which will be held in June by FES, and is in Klang Valley :)

So, what is S.W.E.E.P. ?

It is a 2-week internship program, is designed to help people to understand and appreciate those in need through activities, to provide knowledge in the area of social concern through talks and to experience the work of a social worker in different home attachments ;}

I have alwayz been wanting to play my part in social work throgh the line of healthcare, and this program will definitely be the threshold for me in to discover my area of serving in Christ.! I believe this program will provide great adventure and fun learning space! and most importantly to allow me to explore and understand the professional social work. !

According to S.W.E.E.P: ' Our dream is to create a deep sense of awareness and compasson towards those in need and assist in understanding and knowledge in the area of social concerns. We hope to develop potential workers in the industry who will hopefully get significantly involved in our community!'

Yes, S.W.E.E.P is going to bring love and care towards the needy in Klang Valley, to serve the poor and to share the LOVE of CHRIST!

' for I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in' Mat 25:35

'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least, of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Mat 25:40

let my heart be broken for wat breaks the heart of God

gAtHERing....:)

2009-01-26T00:01:00.003+08:00

i had so much fun yesterday, meeting up old buddies in segamat in Armour, carly, lisa, weiling ( the long lost fren) , lim qian n jan. we seem to have endless thing to talk, from fui's birthday sleep-over to jan's photographing skills to weiling travelled to the border of m'sia n thai juz to taste some delicacies there, lim qian's wardrobe being left behind in inti , lisa's weird experience of hearing some noises when she was burning the mid night oil n etc etc.. so many things to catch up before our precious fren, jan going aboard to aus.. i think we all r going to miss her lotz ,she has been such a tremendous fren to us, wish her all the best in aus n that she may be able to find another bunch of frenz like us there.! take care jan n enjoy ur study in aus!

' the Lord your God is with u wherever u go '

cherish our friendship

p/s: to rachel who was absence : dun wori, we will hv another gathering at the end of this year !

hAPPY New YEaR

2009-01-01T13:33:00.004+08:00

looking back to the year 2008, God has been gracious and faithful to me., when i read back my journal this uneventful afternoon, i realised that God was always there with me through the good and the bad, through the up and the down n He is the God in control of every situation in my life...the most significance event was the Christmas celebration just recently that my parents attended at my church christmas service!!! i was thrilled!, n i want to give thanks to the Lord for His compassion not only for my life but for my family. i realise that it is not through my own effort that my family will come to know Christ but through the grace of God and His timing, wat i would like to highlight here is God know's our heart's desire even before we pray, and it is vital that we keep our heart pure and right everyday.

although my family did not make the decision immediately to accept Jesus as their Lord and saviour, but they finally understand that Christianity is not for 'amour' and everyone has the same opportunity to come and know the Christ, thanks to uncle steven's message. however, i would like to encourage everyone of us to keep on praying for our loves one who has yet to be saved and also never cease to pray for the lost, we might experience incubation period for a very long time but again, God has His own timing and He is a sovereign God!

' trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding'

and here, i would like to conclude my year of 2008 with this song :

IN CHRIST ALONE WILL I GLORY

THOUGH I COULD PRIDE MYSELF IN BATTLES WON

FOR I'VE BEEN BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE

AND BY HIS STRENGTH ALONE I OVERCOME

OH I COULD STOP AND COUNT SUCCESSES

LIKE DIAMONDS IN MY HANDS

BUT THOSE TROPHIES COULD NOT EQUAL

TO THE GRACE, BY WHICH I STAND

IN CHRIST ALONE, I PLACE MY TRUST

AND FIND MY GLORY IN THE POWER OF THE CROSS

IN EVERY VICTORY, LET IT BE SAID OF ME

MY SOURCE OF STRENGTH, MY SOURCE OF HOPE

IS CHRIST ALONE

IN CHRIST ALONE DO I GLORY

FOR ONLY BY HIS GRACE, I AM REDEEMED

FOR ONLY HIS TENDER MERCY

COULD REACH BEYOND MY WEAKNESS TO MY NEED

AND NOW I SEEK NO GREATER HONOUR

THAN JUST TO KNOW HIM MORE

AND TO COUNT MY GAINS BUT LOSSES TO THE GLORY OF MY LORD.

entering into this new year (2009), it means i m now older, hopefully wiser. of course i have my list of resolution done, praying that when i look back into my new year resolution in 2010, i will keep my own words

anyway, i will like to share with you the bible verse that i have chosen for the year 2009

jeremiah 29:11-12 'for i know the plans i have for you', declare the Lord, ' plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you.'

have a blessed NEW YEAR !

HOLIDAY TAGGED

2008-12-17T09:17:00.002+08:00

1.What’s your ambition?
To set up a home for homeless people and to provide free medical services for those needy

2.Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
everyone i love is equally important to me

3.How often do you think of committing suicide?
never, life is precious!

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
At times yes. Sometimes no.( i have thesame answer as fui)

5.How many babies you want?(cancelled)
5.The best gift you ever received.
Grace.

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
absolutely, i like seeing rainbow

7.What is your goal for this year?
to get rid of my habit of procrastination and to be more tactful

8.Do you believe in eternity love?
yes!

9.What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
i never thought of this before, but if i really have to, i think a guy who truly fear and love God is a perfect guy. is that simple, i dun have a list of ten.

10.What are you really afraid of?
losing my faith

11.What are your bad habits?
hate to sweep the floor of my hostel room, is my room, i just dun like to sweep, i need a vaccum

12.Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
you are welcome to inform me the things which i have done that might have hurt you, i will try my best to change

13.State a random fact about yourself.
xx chromosom.

14.Do you have any pets?
i am phobia to cute and lovely animals

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
turkey

16.Describe the person that tagged you in 7 words.
cheerful, adventerous, daring, smart, fair, internet addict

17.Are you currently single or...?
Single

18.What is in your mind now?
christmas.

19.Who are you?
someone who is trying her best to bring love, joy and hope into her family.

20.What makes you happy?
currently is beach
Instructions:Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 peoples. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they’ve been tagged.

I will tag:
Joel
Peilyn

more photos of OPKIM ke-13

2008-12-06T14:21:00.004+08:00

wat is so gr8 about dis photo? can u see the uniqueness? almost every single house in Kuantan are a customer of astro!

the night when we went to the famous beach in Kuantan- 'teluk cempedak' , the dark background was actually the sea and of course, we were standing on soft tender sand beach :P

didi and i

OPKIM KE-13 ( trip to Kuantan) II

2008-12-05T14:55:00.013+08:00

these two lovely chinese girls were the champion of cake decorating competition.

this was one of my favourite snap shot. her name is Atira, she was 1 of my LDK students :)

opening ceremony of the program 'OPKIM', notice the hole on the zinc wall?, i wonder how the hole was formed.
this cutey is the grandson of my 'parents angkat'.

this was the house i was staying at for my 5 days in Kuantan...i was so blessed to live in such a comfy home thru out my khidmat masyarakat, initially i thought i was going to stay in rumah panjang or rumah tinggi., but then rural area now is also advance my family for 5 days, from left : didi, kak as, abah mat, mak nora, kak fatin, me and dilah. i better write down the names b4 they fade away from my memory... :P 5 sisters posing in front of rumah angkat, our theme of that day was blue! the four malay girls were my sisters for 5 days, we shared the same parents angkat.

Faizah and me, taken during clinical

OPKIM KE-13 ( trip to Kuantan)

2008-12-04T10:40:00.004+08:00

my faculty has an anual programme known as ' khidmat masyarakat' ( serving in rural area as an undergraduate), this year it was being held in Kuantan- Perkampungan Cenderawasih. i m a lucky one to be selected as one of the participants, initially i was very relunctant of joining after this stressful semester, i was complaining, however, i m now feeling very grateful of what i hv learnt thru this programme. i thank God for giving me this opportunity to serve kampung people who were mainly Malays,glad dat i didnt pull myself out of this programme even though there were only 2 chinese of 120 students participating. after all it is a blissful experience!

for 5 days i had been staying with a malay family togather with another 4 of my malay friends, 5 of us were consider as the family's 'anak angkat' (adopted child). every morning till afternoon, we will be serving the villages by offering health care body check up, nutrition intake advices and pharmacist consultations, at the multi-purpose hall, but the hall is being used as a kindergarten by the villages. at night , we will dine wif our foster family and spend family hours with them, some nights we will organize some talk shows at their hall. Beside providing health care services, we had blessed the kampung by explainning our courses to the young adults as well as the teenagers there. we really had a wonderful moment fellowship with the kampung people, they were all very encouraging and friendly.

remember my holiday plan which i mentioned of going to a beach and lay on the soft sandy beach? i visited a beach called 'teluk cempedak' in kuantan, even though i couldnt lay on the beach coz i went there at night, but i was feeling content to be able to listen to the glorious sound of the fierceful wave and to be able to breath in the saltiness of beach air. it was superb!, i took some photos, but the qualities isn't dat gud coz it was night time and was using a camera dat unable to function properly... still, i was very happy, satisfied and thankful for dis gift of going to beach. :) i love beach, i enjoy the breeze that relaxing my mind and body...i know, i had fallen in love with beach.

anyway, i will post my photos in my next post since dat i m too lazy to get my camera and transfer the photos now..so, dis entry will be lacked of photos.

enjoy ur thursday :P

Happy 46th birthday papa!

2008-11-25T12:47:00.005+08:00

yesterday was my papa's 46th birthday :)

this is the brownies Jan taught me to bake and my parents love it.

going back to Kl today, leaving for Kuantan tomorrow, hoping that Kuantan is not as sunny as Segamat, i need some windy days,... i wonder how the beach in Kuantan looks like?

Bye segamat, see you again on 2nd of Dec :P

CHRIST BELL

2008-11-22T16:34:00.004+08:00

I came across this message in uncle steven's blog...thought of sharing it with you all...Christmas is around the corner :)

Christ Bell This is an awesome e-mail. Someone took a lot of time setting up this message.
THE BELL I KNOW WHO I AM

I am God's child (John 1:12)

I am Christ's friend (John 15:15 )

I am united with the Lord (1 Cor. 6:17)

I am bought with a price (1 Cor 6:19-20)

I am a saint (set apart for God). (Eph. 1:1)

I am a personal witness of Christ. (Acts 1:8)

I am the salt & light of the earth (Matt 5:13-14)

I am a member of the body of Christ (1 Cor 12:27)

I am free forever from condem nation ( Rom. 8: 1-2)

I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant (Phil 3:20)

I am free from any charge against me (Rom. 8:31 -34)

I am a minister of reconciliation for God (2 Cor 5:17-21)

I have access to God through the Holy Spirit (Eph. 2:18)

I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms (Eph. 2:6)

I cannot be separated from the love of God (Rom 8:35-39)

I am established, anointed, sealed by God (2 Cor 1:21-22 )

I am assured all things work together for good (Rom. 8:28 )

I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 15:16 )

I may approach God with freedom and confidence (Eph. 3: 12 )

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil. 4:13)

I am the branch of the true vine, a channel of His life (John 15: 1-5)

I am God's temple (1 Cor. 3: 16). I am complete in Christ (Col. 2: 10)

I am hidden with Christ in God (Col. 3:3).. I have been justified (Romans 5:1)

I am God's co-worker (1 Cor. 3:9; 2 Cor 6:1).I am God's workmanship (Eph. 2:10)

I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfected. (Phil. 1: 5)

I have been redeemed and forgiven (Col 1:14). I have been adopted as God's child

(Eph 1:5)

I belong to God

Do you know

Who you are?

Keep this bell ringing...

pass it on

'The LORD bless you and keep you;

The LORD make His face shine upon you

And be gracious to you;

The LORD turn His face toward you

And give you peace...

Numbers 6:24-26

i put myself in her shoes

2008-11-21T16:45:00.006+08:00

this news seems to be drawing many people's attention. even my brother talked about it when i reach home today. therefore, i post an entry here, to contribute my point of view. fisrtly, i would like to properly state dat it will be just my plain stand without supporting any party related to this news. this post is not bout condemnation, confrontation or argument, i wud just wanna see the whole thing by placing myself in the victim's shoes.

for your information, this case of bullying happened in one of the junior college in singapore , and according to the students who participated in this ragging declare that it is all merely for the fun of celebrating that poor girl's birthday... i imagine myself being ragged in front of public..i don't have to imagine actally, i had been through that stage, it is a norm to be ragged as a junior in a university according to races..it is a traditional, the reason to sustain this traditional is so that junior will get to know seniors. those who didn't submit to ragging would be an outcast of their own racist group...but do we really need to bully a person so to promote friendship or to build up the relationship??? !

did Jesus bully his disciples? He didn't, He built up the relationship by offering them unconditional love, He accepted the disciples as who they are even though the disciples sometime let Him down. to cherish our friendship, do we really need to do something so ridiculous or so humiliating to prove the genuineness of the friendship? i doubt it..

if i were that girl, i can never imagine how the psychology trauma can be healed. i would cry myself to bed every night...i dun think i can bear it.

anyway, i thank God for giving me wonderful friends who support me, encourage me and cheering me on in this journey of life... i am so blessed :)

something i wud like to add on here is sometime we tend to hurt friends through our act or word without realising it, it is ok to apologise, to redeem the friendship, after all we are not perfect..this is what i have been learning..:P

to read more of this in one of my friends blog: janene

till then, i m going to make myself available for my mum :)

top ten things i seriously want to do in my holiday

2008-11-15T14:35:00.003+08:00

10. meet up with frenz. :P

9. meet up frenz in JB. :>

8. indulge myself in chocolates!!. from brownies to chocolate truffle!!!! ^V^

7. read some good books!!!! ;}

6. laze myself on a beach :D an island will be superb

5. create a mime : ]

4. enjoy the air, scenery and people in segamat. :)

3. bake truffles and brownies and maybe some new stuff. ^o^

2. do something that is very surprising, very unconventional, very not-my-type. LOL

1. last but not least, i will like to practice my cursive writing.;>

yes!!!! i m so looking forward to a restful and chocolate-ful holiday!
happy holiday in advance to all my beloved frenz!

ciao

does it look familiar?

2008-11-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

saw this pic. in Joan's blog... thought it is so cute....
hope u enjoy it, :)

craving for chocolate

2008-11-14T18:14:00.004+08:00

3 more papers to go for before i hit the 'holiday button'. !
i m so looking forward to a restful holiday and a 'chocolate-ful' christmas this year.

anyway, my heart has been urging me to indulge in chocolate for the past few hours...sadly, i can't get any of them here in my miserable hostel... will have to be confined in this place until my last paper. meanwhile, all i can do is to look at the photos of chocolate to ease the chocolate craving heart. :)

i got tagged

2008-11-12T14:58:00.005+08:00

1. The person who last tag you is : fui yin
2. Your relationship with him/her is : friend since Mr. Teh's tuition
3. Your five impression of him/her : daring, smart, fair,adventerous, will-definitely-become-a-prominent-lawyer
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you : the moment she become my friend
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you : my name is yap fui yin
6. If he/she become your lover, you will : tell her that we live in Malaysia, is unlawful
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be : change the law
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will : still be her friend
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be : she is out of her mind
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is : replaced her in her attachment to the boring workplace
11. Your overall impression of him/her is : full of potential
12. How you think people around you will feel about you? : intimidating?
13. The characters you love of yourself are : simple, friendly, peacemaker, helpful, perseverance
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are : procrastinate, insensitive to the needs of people around me, slow learner, forgetful
15. The most ideal person you want to be is : someone with a thoughtful heart and sound mind
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them : thanks for being part of my life

Antidepressant

2008-11-12T12:34:00.011+08:00

3 and a half hour has past since dat traumatic pharmacology paper... i had difficulty forking out the name of the drugs for antiasthma, antihistamine, NSAIDS etc etc!!!!!!! :( my mind is now in needs of some rest after all these touchering days n nights... n i particularly find these paintings of this 13-yr-old girl , Akiane, has the anti-depressant effect. not only she paints, she writes poetry pertaining to her art too!! all her inspiraton come from dreams, visions, people, nature and God. but what touches my heart the most is her goal for every painting - to be an inspiration for others and a gift to God! visit her site :)

-Prince of peace--wonder-- beginning-

-infinite-eye-

-candle jar-

-love- observe thoroughly, u'll b able 2 c those fallen babies in protective bubbles
Love
Love is never alone Love is always crowded Love is the shared self
We cannot own our loveAnd we cannot teach our love
The longest breath of loveis the shortest distance to heaven
The deepest life is loveThe deepest love is an embrace
Love is not restLove is peaceLove is the purpose
-Akiane, age 11

this is my favourite.. -Father forgives them-

The Anthill Ashes

When life lies down on the song of a bird

The resurrection returns my name

And I break the brakes of senses

To taste the steady pain

My cross is nailed into me

I pity the fingers that scourge my face

The minutes hurry the hours

The hours hurry the days

The loyal faces approach

And run along with every summer

Beside the flooded feet of love

The hardened lives are turning numb

Between my feet against the wind

My words will cascade through the strife

But if inside my eyes you see the flying geese

The ropes will pause the next worn life

The seasoned time has buried signs

And swings like a branch above a lost sandal

I step inside the ant hill ashes

Becoming new and larger ant hill

Last Post

2008-10-29T00:43:00.007+08:00

hi everyone! this will be my last post for......this month:) thank u for ur encouragement during my blogging journey, i am so sooo.. blessed to have a group of wonderful people cheering me on! anyway, regarding my title above, i am now officially announced that i will not be chronicled 'my chronicle' till end of november with a very good reason... exam is around the corner! yup, i will be sitting for exam from 3/11 onwards till 20/11. dun get me wrong, despite of sounding a bit thrill on this no-need-to-blog, i have to declare...the truth that i will certainly miss blogging and miss going online..:(sob sob* but i have to discipline myself...after all i can always get back to blogger after that period of time!yes! n before i end this post, below is my exam schedule... wud like to share..:)

3/11 Basic Pathology

10/11 Bacteriology

12/11 General Pharmacology

18/11 Nutrition and Health

19/11 Medical Parasitology

in addition to it, there will be 3 ospe lab test in between that period. do keep me in ur prayer.!

all the best in your exam!

this pic has nothing to do with my post, i haphazardly display it here..simply becoz it looks so restful.... :P

MINI COOPER!

2008-10-27T18:48:00.010+08:00

I came across all these photos taken by my fren ( i still cant believe he was the cameraman!) and thought of sharing them! i m so grateful that he gave me the permission to share them in my blog^^. u can visit his blog for more 'eye candies' !

these remind me of mr bean's car.... now. focus on the Mini Cooper! i wish i have one of my own.! they are so adorable :}
how adorable:>

how adorable ^^
it's an oil cap with a lock! yea...how adorable:]

how adorable :)

mini cooper...how adorable

hooow adorable!

ok, is time to get back to study. hope u enjoy the tour of mini cooper!

Facing Giant (exam)

2008-10-26T13:39:00.000+08:00

i was talking to one of my friend bout one of the parables in the movie of ' Facing Giants ' the other day. the parable is about two farmers praying to God for rain during a drought. one farmer prayed and did nothing, on the other hand, the other farmer prayed and also plowed the farm, faithfully waiting for God to answer his prayer. from this parable, my fren and i reckoned that we pray and meanwhile we have to do something, as an act of faith and also to prepare for God to answer our prayer. same goes to exam, we pray for spirit of wisdom, discipline and diligence. yet we hv 2 do something, that is to discipline ourself and study and God will do the rest...i had learnt the hard way...

so, during this exam season, may all my frenz prepare the farm and wait for the rain!

Prov 13:4 the soul of a lazyman desires and has nothing, but the soul of the diligent shall be made rich.

hapi studying! :)

help wanted!

2008-10-25T01:17:00.000+08:00

i love this blogging thingy.. it functions like 'shout out' in facebook!

ok.. i better get straight to the point.. i need help!! so if anyone out there hear my cry out, come and rescue me from the misery of not being able to fix cbox into my blog..well is not that miserable but is inconvenient. ..thx frenz once again.. for coming to my rescue.

journey to the abundant life

2008-10-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

oh yes! in additional to my previous blog post, thank you for journeying with me!!! that truely means alot to me!

how do you find the song 'Angel brought me here' by sebastian?~ 1 of my favourites! hope you enjoy it!

stop, look and go

2008-10-24T20:37:00.000+08:00

today we had our last cf for this semester on the title of 'stop, look, and go'. we were enquired to reflect and to plot the poiema of our semester... i thought about my semester... what have i achieved, what have i learnt, what have i changed, did i live out my new semester resolution? did i live out our cf theme ' weaving love in ACTION and in TRUTH'? hmm... as you are eagered to know, my poiema looks like a roller coaster..;}see, when we pause and reflect upon the footsteps that we had make, we can see our life more clearly, instead of rushing by.. same goes to blogging, when we journal down our thought, somehow, we will see things more clearly.

God is gracious to me this year, i discover that i learnt a lot( is still in the process of learning), God has been sending people to teach me, He had opened ways for me to learn and to grow. i realised that somehow this year, i have always been learning to.. to open up myself for the Lord to heal me, teach me, guide me and equip me... i have been blessed too with frenz who are dare to be honest with me, to help me see things differently and to encourage me and journey with me... most of all, i have Jesus to journey with me.during the 'stop, look and go' we were ask to look into our life throughout this sem. by sharing our poiema to our groups. many of us are very encouraging by being very open... many of us had been through our down pit in this sem. without sharing with our cf members.. and yes, some of us too have our climax in this sem. , one thing i realised is that i should be more sensitive to my frenz so that i manage to support and cheer them on whenever they need me. amd also to celebrate with them during their glorious moment, not to waste these precious time to journey together with frenz in Christ! after looking back into our journey through out this semester, i am now able to see myself at this point of my life, knowing myself better, and ever ready to continue on the journey, with the desire of growing more in Christ and to not to pass Him by!

before we end the meeting, June as our cf leader threw us a question to ponder on 'what is cf?' hmm.. good question, is cf a second church? is cf another form of cg? is cf a place to makan. or is cf merely a specific time of gathering at 4th lecture hall( we call it DK4) .. the answer is cf is everywhere, everyday whereby we can make a n impact towards our campus and also a place of fellowship among christian students! how do you define your cf?

stop, look and go! all the best in your upcoming final exam !

a delightful piece of song dedicated to my frenz out there, click on the link to listen to it :)

Angels Brought Me Here - Guy Sebastian
It’s been a long and winding journey, but i’m finally here tonightPicking up the pieces, and walking back into the lightInto the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future liesThere’s nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes…

My dreams came true, when i found youI found you, my miracle…

If you could see, what i see, that you’re the answer to my prayersAnd if you could feel, the tenderness i feelYou would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here…

Standing here before you, feels like i’ve been born againEvery breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name…

My dreams came true, right here in front of youMy miracle…

If you could see, what i see, you’re the answer to my prayersAnd if you could feel, the tenderness i feelYou would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here…

Brought me here to be with you,I’ll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)My dreams came trueWhen I found youMy miracle…

If you could see, what i see, you’re the answer to my prayersAnd if you could feel, the tenderness i feelYou would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here…Yes they brought me here…If you could feel, the tenderness i feel…You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here…

2008-10-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

Ladies and Gentleman, i m blogging! i m now literally a blogger; i can't believe this day will come when i will be sharing glimpse of my life in Blogger. i know being a blogger is not easy, you have to live up to people's expectation on you to blog, you have to be responsible on what you blog, how often you blog and how interesting your blog is... that was what pull me back from blogging..ok ok, i did have a kiddy little blog in friendster..but that is like so long ago...anyway, now my perception of blogging is.. after reading through my friends' blog,.. blogging is sharing, discussing, and encouraging. through blogging, we can share things that have been drawing our attention or our concept with friends and family... it is not bout how good your language is or how literature you sound..it can be fun and crazy and also serious or warming...is a new era kind of interaction, you see it is a two way thingy, with a person blogging, another read n give comment. encouragement and new insight is the by-product of this interaction...wow! despite of all the responsibility and expectation, i am thrill to be on board, sharing my life with others! i will make it this time... it will not be a half-hearted thingy! so, do cheer me on on my journey of blogging! :)

My Chronicles

daily dose of Proverbs

Issue I fear in life

Current love =)

Who wears the crown ?

current love - by Deb Schwedhelm Photographer

Psalm 103

Summer's End/ Summer's Memories

National Conference 2010 - Rist It, U Turn (R.I.U.T.)

The songs that speak

Prudence (Reading from C. S. Lewis)

FACIAL EXPRESSION

Waiting

The Prodigal Daughter -by Charlie Mackesy

IF

All this world needs is - Genuine Love

simply want to share

2010

Love letters of Christmas

A little updates from me bout my past few weeks

SWEEP 09!

HaPPY BiRTHDaY SuZaNe ;-}

worship

Am I Lonely?

HaPPY BiRTHDaY Sis !

chicken ala carte

something to share

A Father's Love For His Son

S.W.E.E.P (LET MY HEART BE BROKEN FOR WHAT BREAKS THE HEART OF GOD)

gAtHERing....:)

hAPPY New YEaR

HOLIDAY TAGGED

more photos of OPKIM ke-13

OPKIM KE-13 ( trip to Kuantan) II

OPKIM KE-13 ( trip to Kuantan)

Happy 46th birthday papa!

CHRIST BELL

i put myself in her shoes

top ten things i seriously want to do in my holiday

does it look familiar?

craving for chocolate

i got tagged

Antidepressant

Last Post

MINI COOPER!

Facing Giant (exam)

help wanted!

journey to the abundant life

stop, look and go

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